I am blessed for having such great friends who constantly worrying about me. I know that I should never make them worry but I am just grateful for that. Thank you for worrying about myself that is always so immersed in complication and dilemmas. I know I am a complicated person but you guys do... Continue Reading →
unwanted
I've felt this feeling before and I suppressed it for a very long time, yet this feeling kept coming back haunted me every single breath I take. It's not stopping and it doesn't want to. This feeling of unwanted has beenĀ circulating my atmosphere for quite some time. Even if other people can breathe, I can't... Continue Reading →
my last ranting.
i feel safe here. i feel like i belong. in my own world. as if i can say anything i want and no one understand what the hell is going on with myself. cause i don't know either. i don't know myself. i don't know who is Nen Aishar Yusoff anymore. i don't know where... Continue Reading →
14th January 2012
is tomorrow. my final paper. my final CALL. my CALL i presume?
tank.
i wonder how it feels to stand near the tank. i wonder if i stand there, would it make any difference. i wonder if that tank will save me.
too much.
i wanted to ask someone or anyone to save me but i can't. i need to save myself first.
can’t go on.
after this week, i don't think i can do this anymore. i don't think anything is working out. i don't think i want to. i just want it to end. these feelings is too overwhelmed with mixed emotions. it is not neither right nor wrong. i don't know. everything seemed so vague.